Barbie Comes Through: Her Esoteric Life

(I will be editing this slightly for readability in the future, but thought some readers would like to see it now.)

On Tuesday, June 9th, 2015, I posted "I Think Neville Goddard Mis-stated What Happens When We Come Back to Life, er, Death" (https://imagicworldview.blogspot.com/2015/06/i-think-neville-goddard-mis-stated-what.html). The post drew a number of responses, one of which was "Barbie":

Barbie said,
We continue this same life over and over experiencing death, sorrow and pain until we find ourselves. "I AM," you are, we all are one. We are ALL GOD! I've seen this. What we are doing now is life and death. We will continue to live and die on this same earth. But when you KNOW you KNOW everything, you see it, you feel it, you KNOW it! You know every word because you realize it's you, it's me, it's everyone! I don't know why I found me. I spent lots of time searching me but I never expected to know what I KNOW for absolute truth, 100% without any doubts what I KNOW NOW! My advice is to search as deep as you can for WHO YOU ARE! 3:22

It's what he's talking about. But if he See's what I see it's not just during astrol projection. We are as alive as what they are dead. This is life, this is death. Until we hear God and God bears us. ( when you experience this you will know and understand everything) and everyone will. He saw this, I've seen this. I have felt it. To feel infinity with every(thing)(one) you love. We are the creators of our entire life. Just like you and I they are as alive as we are in this same place. I cannot describe where I will go after this life but the feeling is organic times infinity! Find you! I encourage everyone to find themselves. Not who you are by name or by flesh, but dig deep and find your spirit. Imagine someone asking over and over "who are you?" Not who does so and so believe you to be,but who you truly are. Be confident in your flesh and how you believe people perceive you or disregard it altogether. Don't think about anything except for WHO YOU ARE! 3:37


French Anonymous at 11:38 asked,
How did you make for discover that? I read Neville and other metaphysical books, but for instance in my meditation I never seen that.

And again,
I talked to barbie. I was replying to her. She said she has discovered who is she, and I would like to know how she did it, how she did to live the oneness with universe, how she did to experiment that, I would like to see, too.


Dear French Anonymous,

I too am interested in how Barbie realized what she says she realized.

Barbie, if you happen to read this, could you explain further what you were doing, what you were thinking, what your frame of mind was, what your intention was, were there some background thoughts, any particular yearning in your heart, a cry or desire that was motivating you, some catalyst thought or revelation that helped you to break through to your realization and awakening?

It would help and encourage Anonymous at 11:38 and many others immensely. If you would take the time to compose it, I will post it for everyone's benefit. If you have a blog and post it, please send us a link.

Thank you,
Dan Steele


Barbie responded (yea!),
When I posted this I had been meditating for quite some time religiously. (I'm going to add that I was raised to believe in Jesus Christ as our Savior.) It had been years since I'd stepped into a church, but my belief in God and Jesus has always stayed with me. What happened to Neville just happened to me. I don't know why exactly. I was very spiritual, very in tune with others' souls, meditated daily, and prayed (in the way I thought was right). I'd never knew much about any of this type of stuff until I experienced this. Neville Goddard has been the only person I have found since that explains everything I experienced exactly as I lived it. I just all of a sudden while laying in bed watching TV with my husband started having anxiety. It was almost like I was losing consciousness. I seriously thought I was dying when I heard the words and felt the sensation (it was the feeling of being one with everything and everyone, a feeling that I can't explain) but I'd never felt anything like it. I was comforted with such loving words and told I was God, everyone was God. I was showed life & death, I was showed history. After that happened I "knew everything"; it was like everything I heard, saw or read popped out in messages. I was showed everything's energy and being told how to attract that energy. 9:30

I was told what to tell my husband to make him understand it even during him watching a TV documentary. I was shown everything they didn't understand and could even pull versus from the Bible at random that made what I was saying seem logical. After three days of seeming as if I lived in the clouds and not having no questions because anytime I had a question I'd get an answer. Be it through someone talking about something random, the radio playing, anything written around me, etc. I'd just hear what I needed to know what I needed. But the more I thought about what I was experiencing the more I started questioning "why me" and why would God only allow few people to know this information. I decided to try and read the Bible and pray for those answers (because like Neville I wanted EVERYONE to KNOW). 9:31

I felt that everyone needed to know and see what I was. And I know people's not going to want to hear what happened to me after I picked up that Bible and I don't even know if I can explain it to make people understand. (My husband knows because he lived it with me, and I thank God he loved me and knew that things like this are NOT who I am or how I act.) From day one of this I became someone else, but I was told exactly what to say go him so he'd listen without thinking I was crazy, I was even told that I'd be labeled crazy by some but to continue to try and teach others how I "found myself" so they to could be where I was. Anyways, I'm still writing things down that I've seen and things I still randomly see/hear. But after I picked that Bible up it became the worst nightmare of my life. Only certain words popped out and it was as if I was being deceived about God; it was almost like I was reading the words as different people. Something evil (only showing me words and verses that made it seem like God was evil) as myself (crying, trying to understand what I was reading and seeing, thinking about those I'd lost believing they'd gone to what I was shown as hell for believing in the Bible. It was the scariest time of my life and I could do nothing but read (only what I was shown to read) and I knew in my heart that it was wrong, so when I could find ME (myself through the voice that wasn't me telling me all these things and showing me (yes, I lived this [like I was being used as a movie character] just as much as I live now) I saw, lived and was told EVERYTHING about the past, the present and the future. But I knew in my heart that God would most definitely show ALL those he loved this kind of peaceful feeling and not just a few, so as I was saying I prayed to Jesus Christ to show me what was real because by this point I was almost completely lost within myself and I knew that if I didn't figure things out that I would be crazy. After I started praying for a week straight I did nothing but battle Revelation in my mind, screaming only certain things out loud to my husband. It was not anything I'd ever read out of the Bible because it was made into metaphors in my mind. It was so confusing because it was like a battle between good and evil. 9:31b

I'd read & LIVE parts that sounded like the Bible was trying to deceive me and then other parts making me feel I'd been deceived by the same thing Neville was deceived by. (Whatever happened to me, was telling and showing me that no one would understand Neville because his words were written only for me.) It showed me how everything in my life I'd heard, seen, felt, everything was connected to everything in MY life. If I'd met you personally on the street or maybe even on here I would have made that into something to advance me along in life. You on the other hand would not be important to me because it was like I'd lost all importance to me except trying to figure out how to get everyone I knew and met to the state I was in. Now I wouldn't wish it upon ANYONE! If I'd known what was happening from the beginning my battle might not have been so difficult, or maybe if I didn't believe as strongly as I do in God and love those around me as deeply as I do. I have kids & 3 grandsons who are my entire world. I'm their world so when I started feeling nothing but this "I'm one" and floating around like I was on my own cloud running the entire show I knew that God does not want anyone to be so self-centered and not value and love their time with family. I feel like I could have done or became ANYTHING I wanted to become, there wasn't ANYTHING I didn't know and understand all the way up until the point that in my heart I knew I wasn't something more special than anyone else to be shown, told and live these things like I was. It was the greatest feeling I'd ever felt until I started praying to God and Jesus then it was a complete nightmare because I was shown the truth and it was the scariest thing I'd ever lived in my life. I was shown (told and lived) things in the Bible I had never read or heard in my entire life and I'd research and sure enough it was there exactly as God told me and showed me but then I had this other thing trying to pull me back to where Neville Goddard was. It was a battle I didn't even know myself that I'd win. I seriously thought maybe I'd died (yes, I thought I had died and was just imagining the people around me) my husband was my rock because I couldn't sleep with the lights off, I couldn't think for myself, I would just scream out certain things to him for a week straight (I still don't know if he even understood what I would tell him but I understood exactly what I was being told and showed to tell him. Then I thought maybe I was getting ready to die, because who just randomly just one day KNOWS all this kind of stuff?! Not me! I knew it was very much real, not an illusion not my imagination, I knew that this was my new world that I was stuck in. I was living it just like I was living my life before it happened. So, I assumed I was going to die and I was being judged for everything I'd did in life because my entire life had became a movie after this happened. If my husband did not love me I have no doubt I'd been committed into a crazy house. It scared him plum to death but he would hold me and although I only heard part of the words he'd say there at the end they were the exact words I needed to hear to get me through everything. 9:35

Not once did he call me insane or even question what I was living because I think it scared him too badly to even ask. I am a very, very strong minded woman and he knows this, so I'm sure he was as scared as I was. I seriously thought if I didn't die I was going to end up completely crazy because these things were in my mind 24/7, and any time I was in the dark I could not handle the things I was hearing, seeing and living. I felt so much evil around me for a week straight I refused to turn the lights off at night and would just sit in bed living this hell. I'd hear something, research it; see something, research it; and live things as I was in a movie and research it.. I was NOT me. I do not know who was trying to take me over or what was, but I know that I pray to God that although I'm still not completely over it that I don't ever get to that point again. The only good thing that's come out of this was as an adult I now know and understand most of the Bible and I have also found things I was told after being saved from this in Scriptures and books that are not in the Bible I'd been taught by. I am 100% without a doubt a believer in God & Jesus Christ. If I ever doubted it before I most definitely don't anymore. I understand that this entire world is ran by the devil now and I have seen and felt God's (Jesus') love for us. Like a parent tho we cannot make our children do anything and he's given us all the free will to reach out to him if we wish or to follow false teachings if we wish as well. I don't know exactly why or how this happened to me. I believe my third eye has always been slightly open because I've witnessed things before as a child that others hadn't, but now that I've been able to research things more I honestly believe I opened my third eye completely somehow (maybe meditation). I don't know. But I do know that the Devil (something very evil) is very much real as well. I'll never be back to who I was before completely, but I feel myself being able to live a little more each day after going through all of that. It was very, very scary. It really makes you worry about those you love (kids, spouse, grandkids, family) because it's really confusing trying to sort through what's really the wrong way and the right way to go in life. Being wealthy, healthy and just 100% beautiful at everything sounds very appealing but knowing what's after this life is far more beautiful than any of those things is my choice for myself and my family. I saw it all. I saw that life here and then death. I saw hell, I saw just DEATH for those who are not bad but just don't believe. And I saw things that I didn't even know in life that God promised until this happened, and I was able to pull myself together and sure enough I found everything I was showed and told. I had no idea there was anything beyond just a heaven in the sky or that God made covenants with people and even their children if you found him and proved your faith and love in him. 9:35b

I knew nothing at all about "New Age religion" until this happened to me, and after I realized that's exactly where something evil was leading me to and I lived though this experience I know now that the things I was doing not realizing I was following a religion (deep & different types of meditation, Astro projection, trying to see people's souls and feel their energy better than what I could already). I didn't realize that I was doing anything except trying to help myself de-stress and unwind after a long day's work. It made my sex life extraordinary after meditation--I slept better by Astro projecting before bed at night, and I loved feeling my husband's energy and mine combined. Since this has happened I've been afraid to do any of those things. A few times I've listened to frequency music, but if it's dark I'll start seeing lights and I'll continue to hear the frequency long after it is turned off, so needless to say I haven't even done that very much. I don't even know if any of those where the cause, but still I'm afraid to go back to living that again. Well, that's my story and experience. I hope maybe it might help someone. Good luck with whatever you choose in life. 9:36
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Thank you, Barbie, for this most insightful and interesting post. I hope you do not mind I edit a bit for readability, and I hope that I do not mess up any of your thoughts. I for one believe you experienced and do experience exactly what you say, with the caveat that sometimes the things we experience are not what they purport to be. If you wish to expand on or clarify anything, please let me know. I have a feeling this post may draw a number of comments and inquiries, so I hope you will be available to respond later. My e-mail, by the way, is imagicworldview@aol.com. Yes, I am that old.