Apres-Christianity is not Less Christian, but Deeper, Founded

I have not left Christianity; I am only finding it. If Christianity is the Power of God and the Wisdom of God IN us, and we have not actually found that, and do not actually believe it to do it, how are we Christians? Finding in reality -- in the "blood" of Jesus Christ -- what the theology is about, to do that wisdom and power and to be him,

Well, I am getting really shrill.