"This is MY Life!!"

Ha. No it isn't. The matter you are in is God's, and so is the consciousness you have and its life. IT ALL--ALL OF YOU (ALL OF "ME," AS YOU WOULD REFER TO YOUR SELF)--BELONGS TO GOD! And it is not for us to do with as we please, but for HIM to do with as He pleases. We owe to Him all of our perfect selves, and are as robbers and thieves--rebels--for whatever lacking we offer back to Him. Can't come up with a hundred percent? You'd better come up with a suitable sacrifice for your shortcomings. The only one to be found adequate and acceptable is the Head of all of us Himself, the Milta (Miltha), who has already given Himself for us on the acknowledgement that we are His--that we are owned by Him! His surrender, submission, and sacrifice to God has already been accepted as payment in full for YOUR debt, and you have been given unto the Milta as His possession on the condition you seek and receive His forgiveness and acceptance. Don't blow it.